Belle ♥ Sarin

Sunday, June 13, 2010, 4:56 PM

(9,43pm)
Finally i know who i am..
i'm a troublemaker to everyone even my family too..
God, please tell me what should i do now.?
how am i going to move on with this life i had..
i seriously lost now, i really dunno where to go and i dunno how to moove on..
i surrender, I LOSEE TO YOU.!
i think i staying in this world i just know how to cause troubles to each n everyone around me..
why dun you take back my life..
puttin me in this world, i rather go to another world..
i just want to go back to the past, when i'm alone, without caring people around me to care me..
because i dun no their care, it a waste a time to them..
because i'm just a troublemaker..
why i dun have a relationship n friendship that are long term.?
because i was boorn to be a troublemaker?
as a troublemaker, why just can't have a simple life like the others.?

Please, god..
i'm begging you..
please give me a new path to walk through.
i really dun like the life i had now..
please dun toture me anymore, i can't hold on..
i just craving have a simple life that other had..
i just want the people around me be more happier than i do...
why it is so difficult.?
why can't i have that life, i hoping..
I HATE MYSELF..

SORRY........

To Eileen, Shiva & Baby,

I dun wan you all to suffer with me..

so i choose to shut myself up..

i really needs sometimes to heal the wound that cut deeply inside..

please give me 1 more chance & more time..

hope you all will understand..

Christabelle

PAINING

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Today woke up early in the morning..
due to something on going in this morning..
after that meet Eileen n Jun Siong inside the train..

unexpected that they saw ming at the platform too..

we joking around went it reach bugis, ming got down..

Than left 3 of us..

we went to city square to eat at MFM..

as celebrating Eileen's early birthday..

we eat until going to reach 100dollar sia..

haha..

after eating we went down to expo..

i n Eileen went to meet our baby..

baby n me we took quite a few photo..

here are the few..

and now this are a few photo i took myself :P