today went to BK work at 12pm -1.30pm only
:P
because JamiL call me said today night not enough staff..
so i went over to work..

nothing musch to talk about..
tomorrow going out to with joey for our ladys' outing..
yea..
faster next day..
but still need to go back to secondary school to collect my N level cert..
than shoping n have lunch..
after at going to expo find my baby..
for been two days never see him already..
miss him alot alot..

night



Suddenly remember i watched before a show called '10 promises to my dog.'
this show really touched me..
because i'm a DOG LOVER (:

let's put ourselves into dogs postition..
-You must listen to me(dog)
-I'm(dog) your forever friend
-You must play with me often
-I(dog) also have a heart, i've(dog)got feeling
-No quarrel with me(dog), when I(dog) grow up, I(dog) will win you
-If I(dog) dun listen to you, there sure a reason for it
-when you are in school, you have friends to accompany you. but for me, i only have you.
-we are BEST friend, we must have good communication
-my life time(dog) is only about 10years, so we had to treasure the time we spend together
-LASTLY, please dun forget the times we had spend together, must remember it in heart.
And when i die, please stay by my side(dog)

for people who wanna buy a dog please read this..
after read you think twice n ask yourself wheather you can keep the 10promises to the dog..
if can't please dun buy it, it a hurt to the dog future..



now i posting, because i can't fall asleep..




i checked my result..
my GPA only 2.0 point..
but actually i must be happy because i miss most of the class but at least i manage to pass my modules...
but my sport of wellness & life skill leave blank..
thinking isn't not stated or nv pass..
next school reopen must ask my CA..
i n joey score are the same..
because our marks are same same..
haha..
really larh, sister mah..

this few days, my baby use his motorbike to sent me home from work (:
i always keep notice about baby one thing :P
when he doing something he will sing song..
:D
i also asked baby to teach me his language..
this two days working at BK a little mood swing ..
because due to losing blood..
temper abit bad..

hope faster school reopen..
so i won't keep staying at home..
i promise to baby at when school reopen i gonna study hard to get 3.0 point for my GPA..
hope so..

bye..



past few days was working..
very late than reach home..
no time to post..

now i n baby get back to now..
everything are fine now..
hope it won't happen again..

today went to work early in the morning..
than sadd that my best sis never work cause she fall sick..
today not so busy than yesterday..
than end work early, but sadd to say baby today not working can't meet him..
now i go rest..
bye..



now is already morning..
i have not been sleeping since yesterday..
seriously i can't fall asleep..
crying throughout the night..
listening to music, seeing those photos when 4 of us having our happy time together..
even now i typing, my tears can't control..
how am i going on like that.?
i want back the happy time with them..
why must you took away from me..?
even thought i'm a troublemaker, but i'm still a human..

GOD,
if you are torturing me,
than please just take my life away from me..
is there so difficult to you.?

Christabelle
@
Torturing



(9,43pm)
Finally i know who i am..
i'm a troublemaker to everyone even my family too..
God, please tell me what should i do now.?
how am i going to move on with this life i had..
i seriously lost now, i really dunno where to go and i dunno how to moove on..
i surrender, I LOSEE TO YOU.!
i think i staying in this world i just know how to cause troubles to each n everyone around me..
why dun you take back my life..
puttin me in this world, i rather go to another world..
i just want to go back to the past, when i'm alone, without caring people around me to care me..
because i dun no their care, it a waste a time to them..
because i'm just a troublemaker..
why i dun have a relationship n friendship that are long term.?
because i was boorn to be a troublemaker?
as a troublemaker, why just can't have a simple life like the others.?

Please, god..
i'm begging you..
please give me a new path to walk through.
i really dun like the life i had now..
please dun toture me anymore, i can't hold on..
i just craving have a simple life that other had..
i just want the people around me be more happier than i do...
why it is so difficult.?
why can't i have that life, i hoping..
I HATE MYSELF..





Hais..



today morning woke up early in the morning again..
i think i still in my lala land, i woke up went to bathe n get prepared..
after that leave the house straight away :P
reached bedok inter is only 10am..
no choice waited for eileen until 10.30am..
haha..


after we meet up..
together we took mrt to work..
in working place, sometimes they will like call me sotong..
haha, they said my face look blur blur one..
=.="
seriously do my face look blur.?
nvm..
when lunch time, the crowds are still not that much yet..
but...
dinner time, after 7pm lots of people came in, in one short..
nearly jam my station..
blur at that moment..
but overall, it fun n i still can manage myself that the station where manager located me..
working until closing today..
doing all the cleaning n my bro helps me to mop half of the another side of the floor :)
than i n eileen went home..
quite tiring actually but..
it fine with me..
because i also can kill my time for the day..
lol..


2 more minutes is me n baby anniversary..
9month already..
we went pass all the difficulties together..
we had quarrel, happy n sad..
but we manage to goes pass everythings :)
hope we can continue celebrating more n more anniversary..
I LOVE YOU..!! MUACKKSS..!!

turning in..
Nights..
byes..



Now just reach home after taking shower..
trying to use the com if there is internet wireless..
than have so now i'm blogging about today:)

today morning,
woke up early in morning 9am..
went to bathe, dry hair n tie hair..
about everything is done, i went off for work..
meet eileen was already slight late so decided to take a cab down to MFM..
than we reach there early..
around 11.15am we reached already..
went to MFM, than we saw dina first working in the same company :)
we had our lunch before we start work..
i n eileen finish we start work..
happy that eileen now working in the station..
than she learning very hard n concentrate..
and i'm working as a greeter for the afternoon..
after that lunch time alittle busy than no people already..
and started boring..

dinner time..
we had our dinner already..
went to walk walk around the shopping mall because we are too full..
after that we back to work again..
i n her swop station..
and she got a chance to learn new thing..
she tryin on new thing is very good:)
hope everything fine with her..

okay larh..
going to sleep now..
tomorrow still working 12pm-10pm..
full shift..
hais..
this two days, i miss baby alot alot..
never got chance to go see him..
2 more days is our 9month anniversary..
hope can meet until him n spend the day with him..
good night..

bye..



today was me 5th day work tat MFM..




talking about today..
early morning wake up, went to work with eileen at mahattan..
i reach there slightly late abit..
due to yesterday, end work at 10pm n reach home is already late.. than sleep at about midnight..
i n eileen end work at 3pm than we went back BK n work at 5pm..
than we rushing..
but luckily we are on time..

we end work at BK wth shiva n baby..
about 8pm..
than shiva suggest to go changi village..
baby dun feel like going so i said dun go lorx..
is that so difficult..
but bottom of my heart i really wants to go..
because my wish is go to malaysia together with him when my birthday..
but it can't happen n fulfill already..
than another was even can't celebrate in malaysia..
but at least not at BK but i got no choice but to celebrate inside BK..
than that all put it aside..

but why..
even i hoping that 4 of us can go out to spend some time on each other..
but baby..
isn't so difficult for you..
throughout was like a went there by myself..
alone..
baby..
IS ALONE..
i won't goes in to detail..
you knows alot..
i said to you already..
when going home..
you said something makes my heart broken into pieces..
you are trying to said you wanna land your hand on me..
in a hash wayas you have..
first time you said that..
did i do anything worng..

baby..
everything i'm doing for you is for your good..



10 more min, my birthday going to end already..

I can't believe I fell so hard for you. Now I'm letting you fall, because if you truly loved me, you would have gotten me something more than flowers.

Basically i be named Christabelle
when i came to this world on 03 jun 1993.
currently schooling at ITE College EAST
studyin Hair Fashion & Design
relationship single/attached


hE look normal to everyone
but for me, he is special
his name is Sarinbabu Naidu A/L Rajaji
he care about me, protect me whenever i'm in danger
he is malaysian & he is indian
but i dun care where he come from n what his race
as long he loves me n i loves him
the rest we dun care :)
we fall together into the love trap on 12.09.09


Myself
} his love
} More outing with baby, shiva & eileen :P
} Change my attitude, more better
} Earn more more money
} Grow tall(hopin to grow up to at least 155cm)
} Go dental for teeth washing
} new phone(BL20;new chocolate)
} heels
} prepaid internet broadband
} better life
} go Kbox with joey & friends
} new job with better pay
} iphone- 8GB
} shopping bag
} school bag
} enough sleep:D

Him
} stay with him forever
} Pass his motorbike lisence
} come my house often ):
} less quarrel
} Take more photo together
} Stay happy
} Oversea to malaysia
} Watch movie together
} Shopping together